我還是我自己
Tuesday, June 2, 2015 | 9:47 PM | 0 comments
不要談什麼分離 我不會因為這樣而哭泣 那只是昨夜的一場夢而已
不要說願不願意 我不會因為這樣而在意 那只是昨夜的一場遊戲
不要說願不願意 我不會因為這樣而在意 那只是昨夜的一場遊戲
那只是一場遊戲一場夢 雖然你影子還出現我眼裡
在我的歌聲中 早已沒有你
那只是一場遊戲一場夢 不要把殘缺的愛留在這裡
在兩個人的世界裡 不該有你
在我的歌聲中 早已沒有你
那只是一場遊戲一場夢 不要把殘缺的愛留在這裡
在兩個人的世界裡 不該有你
喔 為什麼道別離 又說什麼在一起 如今雖然沒有你 我還是我自己
說什麼此情永不渝 說什麼我愛你 如今依然沒有你 我還是我自己
為什麼道別離 又說什麼在一起 如今雖然沒有你 我還是我自己
說什麼此情永不渝 說什麼我愛你 如今依然沒有你 我還是我自己
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I have MIA for almost 1 whole year since i last blog at this blog. Its because i think its time to share my time at here again. Life have been quite miserable for me. Things have not been doing good for me either. Im totally broke down. Yes, totally & mentally broke down. I found myself back to useless iris. Yes, a useless one i mean. I truely meant it.
I hate so much about it now. But what can i say? Everything happens for a reason. & i just simply cant understand why things must always go into my way? Am i really that bad that i need to be treated this way? I feel unfair, for seriously.
I have thought of dying. Yes, kill myself i mean. But i tense to give up somehow. Not because im afraid of dying. But instead, i thought of my 2 girls. My two lovely kids. Thou at times they give me problems. But i still endure with them & gave them my very best. I hope im a good mama to them. I doesnt want they have the same life like me. Forever non-stop's issue. Im facing everything all alone. No one truely undetstands what im having. Some just thought that im asking for pity. Im not that kind of people. I dont need people to pity me, I just want someone to hear me out, let me to have a shoulder to lean to cry. Is that hard? Yes, i have afew now, or i can say is actually 1/2 of them. My cousin of cause & my peanut. I dont wanna let peanut to worry for me so much, so i dont wanna say too much to her either. Because she has her own problems to face.
The one that i need is always not here for me. Instead, they are always leaving me behind. Leaving me for good to face this, but lucky, now, my own parents & own family member is there for me alittle times. Its okay, they have their problems too. At least i know how much they cares for me. Unlike some other friends i have. & i mean what i say.
My life is indeed miserable enough. Why i have to go through all these just for little happiness? Why i cant i be like other girls to have those happiness? I simply dont understand.
Anyone there to help me? I need that pillar to lean on, to cry to, & to hold onto.