错过的情人
Thursday, October 28, 2010 | 11:28 AM | 0 comments
爱一个人有多苦只有自己最清楚
付出了全部青春已荒芜
原来只是一个错误
年少无知太仓促
和你走上不归路
昨夜梦难留今夜难有梦
我和你都是在演出
我也不想装糊涂
却又不得不认输
错过的情人
还有谁能够留住
我也只好装糊涂
假装自己很幸福
伤在心里痛
眼泪再也流不出
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Okays. Done. Decided. Im moving out of this "no love" house. Im seriously tired. Already had two choice in mind. Is either share with Gigi's friend, JJ. Or i stay alone. Planned to stay alone also better. Own privacy. Just wanna learn to be more independent. & make a real success of myself. They might look down on me. But im trying hard to tell myself, i really have to brace up & face the fact. & work even harder for myself. Im tired of my life. Really. I have super duper emo for almost a month. Dont dare to find BFF. Because she is having her Os'. So what i can do is, off work around 3am, go drink till morning 5.30am, go home, sleep till 7.30am & wakes up to look after Baobeii. In the noon, only Baobeii nap then i can nap with her. If not, i have to endure till SHE(mum) is back home to take over, then i prepare myself for work again.
Yahs. Its all my life now. During work i drink like siao. After work, i drink like siao again. Just to numb myself. Health wasnt important at all. All i want is to earn as much as i can. I just wanna give Baobeii all the best. For me? I just wanna be stress-free. That's all. Nothing i can ask for.
Okays, shall bathe Baobeii & prepare to bring her for her 18th month's injection at AMK Polyclinic, See ya. Baobeii is super duper talkative. Sometimes, she does really melt my heart. I really need to work hard & stay strong just for HER. She's my everything, my life. I love her, deeply, truely. I can afford to lose anything, but not her.