Okays. 5 more days to Baobeii's 2nd year old birthday celebrations. 6 more days to her full 2 years old. & there, i marked myself as her momiie for two years. Yeah. Because of this little baobeii of mine, i learnt many things. Even now.. I fall down again, & im trying my best to stand up again. Loves hurt. But my loves for baobeii is so precious that i cant bear to throw her away even times i thought she's a burden for me. A single momiie was isnt easy at all. Because you need time, you need patience to love & teached her.

But at least im luckier abit, because parents of mine is still young, they can help me to look after baobeii when im busy with work. Okays. I know i owe them. Its my kid, i should be the one taking care of instead not my parents. Im learning to be a good momiie to baobeii too.

After the last break up of me & mrnutt. Im totally regretted. Okays. Shouldnt have seek help from others, because in the end, he's the one getting back all the revenge. Im thinking hard now. What to do. & what to change for a better.

May go bless my lil baobeii. & today. I know the miracle will never happen again. Its okay. I wiped my tears away, looking forward to be better. But actually im still tearing away myself in my own world. Im happy & thankful to those who cared, & those who lend me their listening ear to hear all my sadness, all my stories. It might not be a very perfect story, it might be a disgrace to myself. But what to do? It had already started. So we have to carry on to bring it to the ending point.

Now i finally know what's the meaning of : Cherish the one yu loves, before its gone forever.

Yea, its true. I really believed it. Because i lost again. But i know, i will stand up again. Right?

Sorry that i loved you. Im taking back my love. Because im giving you to much, pp dear.