fuck my life
Wednesday, October 30, 2013 | 1:42 AM | 0 comments
1 more day to hit November. Second last month of 2013.
Things wasn't doing as great as I thought.
Everything seems like a mess in my life.
It seems like i'm just trouble maker in this world.
I just cannot make things be perfect. In fact, i'm seriously a loser.
A loser in life. I achieved nothing well in my life.
Yet I bought many mistakes into my life.
Regret? What can I do?
Cry? Can things be solve & I pretend nothing happens?
Tired? I feel like giving up so much..
Hold on? I'm tired of life sometimes..
Wondering when will be my time to bid goodbye to this world.
I'm not threatening about giving up my life.
Yet I feels superbly "tired" oftens.
The quarrels between my parents, bought me fear about life.
I always thought that it wont & never happen in my family.
But I was totally wrong. Because this nightmares is coming into my life almost everyday.
I cannot do anything. Because I can't even handle my own problem well.
So I have no rights to helped to bring things back to normal.
All I know how to do is to drink & cry to forget the facts.
Utterly a useless bitch.
Fuck my life.
I even try to blame them for bringing me into this world.
Fuck.
How could I even say such a hurting words?
I'm nuts.
I might go crazy anytime.
Have not been on medicine for like a few months already.
I really wished that I wont rely on those medicine.
I just want to make a success in my life.
Why it seems like impossible to me?
I can't even handle my own relationship properly.
Indeed, i'm really a fuck-ed up bitch.
Appreciation is greatly appreciated. But why can't I just control myself?
Hais.
Fuck my life.