Many ups & downs recently. My life indeed looks like a roller coster so much. Though its abit fun, but im always worrying on how the excitment will be like.

Fuck. Im really moodless. Really tired of everything. Tired of striving so hard. Yet no appreciation is given. Whatever i do & i did for is always ending up my own will, my own fault, my own wrong. Why? Why cant everything just go like what & how i wanted it to be like?

Is it very hard?

I feel like crying. But i know i still gotta face it up the next moment. Life is cruel. God is cruel to me too. Hais. I lost words to describe my feelings. I lost words to present myself now either. Pretending to be happy, is what im doing now. But why am i putting myself in so hard position. I dont understand why.

Fuck it.

*Everything happens for a reason. Is either you give it a shot. Or you just fuck it & give up.*